yes. no?

Everything is backwards here. Oh, and here would be Greece...

Yes sounds like no. No sounds like yes. A green light doesn't mean it's safe to cross the street, you have to wave down trolleys and cabs only stop if you look like you don't need one.

And I was under the impression that I'd be pretty plump by now but the opposite has happened. Really.

For dinner yesterday we had a tableful of lamb pork chops, fries, beets, fava beans, Greek salad, saganaki, spanakopita, spinach, fried zucchini and dessert. And wine. Lots and lots of wine.

And tonight we had half a loaf of bread, fried zucchini, saganaki, some wine and Greek salad followed by lamb with potatoes.




The waiter kept stopping by to chat and, I'm sure, pontificate with his colleagues about where we were putting all the food. Witnessing two petite ladies ordering and eating a family's worth of food must be quite the curiosity to these men.

There was even a stray cat who sat by our table the entire evening waiting like an obedient dog for some scraps to be thrown its way. Even the animal world can't believe we'd have such bottomless pits.

So there you have it.

We eat. We drink. We are merry. And all the while, the pants aren't getting any tighter.

Life is awful, isn't it...

we don't need another

gyro

Actually, that's a lie. I love these. Just had a nicely toasted pork gyro with fries and a side of sauce. Don't know what kind of sauce but it was very tasty. Very.

Or maybe everything just seems better when you're travelling.

If that "special sauce" had found its way to my table at a restaurant back home, I might have found it suspect. Put it in a little ceramic bowl on a table in Greece and suddenly it's very continental.

Also very continental, my friend tells me, is how likely we are to gain some good poundage while we're here. But I'm okay with that. The amount of weight I lost from getting sick and being so stressed over the past month should be addressed, anyway. I say, this is the way to do it -- abroad!

So bring on the European food challenge. I have yet to meet a gyro, souvlaki, calamari, cheese pie or seafood I don't like.

where you at?

The only person we should be competing with is yesterday's version of ourselves.

Seems I've forgotten about this and haven't been managing myself very well lately. My fuse is short -- non-existent, really -- and I'm getting more drained fighting things that just aren't worth the battle. I need a drink.

Correction: drinks.

And a reminder, perhaps. I miss my old laid-back self. Where'd she go? She was much more fun and less weighed down by the general stupidity of the office. In her place is a lady of rage. She demands a lot of time and energy and, quite honestly, she needs to go.

So, methinks it's time for a buffet.

You know, to settle and ground my appetite-diminished, alcohol-seeking self. Food is love and I haven't been feeling much of that at the office these days. It's time I remember that only I can feed and satisfy myself.

work it out

The universe is conspiring to reduce me to a skeletal drunk.

I haven't quite been the same since getting sick a few weeks ago. My diminished appetite isn't yet fully restored and the circus that is my job is driving me to think more about when I can next go out for drinks.

I joke about self-medicating, but it feels like I'm becoming the joke these days. Not funny...

After today's assembly of the motley crew that is my department, it's clear that giant bowls of ice cream, bottomless teapots and lunchtime rants aren't going to cut it. And forget the wooly mammoth. I need something to address my anger and disappointment with the way things have turned at the office. Because, apparently, I can't reconcile these things myself.

Getting drunk with colleagues seems a fun and easy distraction. We'll probably exchange inappropriate thoughts and encourage each other to behave badly, but when we're back in the office next week we'll surely return to our dark, little corners and continue muttering under our collective breath.

And what will we be muttering? When's the next outing?

lunch and learn

Had sushi for lunch on Friday with some colleagues. Probably the most fun I've had out to lunch in a very long time. Clearly, it was a much needed outing for us all.

We were two women, two men and a table full of opinion. You can learn a lot about your colleagues when they're having a good time. Defences come down and out comes the truth. If only there was sake, too. Can you imagine?

Can't wait to see what this week's after-work outing will produce, as alcohol will surely be involved. It's a short work week and everyone is looking forward to letting off a little more steam. And we haven't invited the boss so people should feel more free to express themselves -- not that we're a shy bunch around each other.

Could get ugly. Or fantastically entertaining. I'm voting for the latter, of course. Either way, transcripts the following day... [kidding]

searing mad

If yesterday was a day for poultry and fries, today was the kind of day that called for a wooly mammoth and an ocean's worth of alcohol.

I could have seared some mammoth sirloins with the rage I felt today. Easily.

[breathe]

Anger isn't fun. It's draining and distracting and, worst of all, makes me lose my appetite. That's not something I care to lose.

And anyone who can make that happen ought to watch out. Forget that hell hath no fury business.

Ever try making nice with an appetite-depressed woman?

feed me

I've been out to lunch for two consecutive days now. Let me rephrase that. I've gone out for lunch with colleagues over the past two days, and I have another date this Friday. I feel so popular.

As my month of RFP hell comes to a close, it's starting to feel like the chain that binds me to my desk has a few more links than I thought. I'm not just limited to visiting the kitchen or bathroom anymore. I can actually leave the building. Hallelujah!

Yesterday, we went for Chinese food. We shared a giant platter of chow mein and drank from what seemed to be a bottomless teapot. And as busy as my day was, going out really helped take the edge off. That's a luxury usually only reserved for wine -- a true and constant love. I returned feeling lighter and refuelled.

And today I finally felt like I could breathe again. So off we went to the chalet to vent over rotisserie chicken, french fries and bowls of special sauce.

Because when you're expressing frustration, let's face it, a salad just doesn't cut it.

out to lunch

When the ladies go out to lunch, the stereotypical image is one of a bunch of girlies sitting around gossiping about boys and other juicy topics. The gathering is loud and filled with whispers, laughter and gasps. Oh, and drinks. Lots of drinks. Nearby, other tables are collectively rolling their eyes at Table Estrogen.

At least, that's what comes to my mind. I've been to a few of those. Some are for emotional hand-holding and others are meant to encourage naughtiness and fun.

I choose door # 2, please and thank you.

So what do men talk about when they eat together? According to Mr. Man, they primarily meet to discuss business, complain about work or talk sports. Yawn.

I picture a bunch of well-dressed men, posturing about how well things are going and offering unsolicited opinions about what the other attendees should be doing with their business. I see chests getting puffed up and men on the verge of pounding their pectoral muscles. I see food being inhaled without much thought for chewing. Maybe a business card or two gets passed around. Double yawn.

My curiosity about what men talk about was prompted by seeing a generally anti-social colleague go out to lunch with a very social one. What could they possibly have to talk about? And, perhaps more notably, why do I even care? I don't, normally.

It must be that it's a distraction from the overwhelming and ever-growing work amassing itself on my desk. Maybe a little jealousy, too? They have time to go out and I don't. Who cares if it's just about comparing notes? It's an opportunity to leave the stress of the office (although temporarily) and spend some time playing with other people.

And I like to play. It's something I should do more often. Just wish my sandbox wasn't filled with all this paperwork.

3-second abs

Mr. Man bought lozenges for my sore throat. He insisted I bring a bag of them to the office to help provide relief throughout the day. Isn't he thoughtful?

Of course, I would much rather fill myself with tea but then half my day would be spent in the loo so I suppose there's some merit to his offering. But these lozenges are nasty. Let me say that again. Na-sty. They're that foul, lemony medicinal flavour that makes me feel like every time I speak a nearby plant may collapse from the fumes. Ugh.

Come to think of it, the smell is not unlike that other unholy lemon-scented dishwashing soap that I can't stand. It's just so unnatural. Funny because I love lemons and sour things, but these days I much prefer the scent of green apple. Ah, fruit... but I digress.

These lozenges are so strong that I'd almost prefer to keep coughing. In fact, I think my abs are starting to firm up from all the extra involuntary muscle contractions.

Did you know coughing involves the abs, ribs and diaphragm? And how many coughs does it take to get a six pack these days? Hm. Something to consider.

c is for cooties

Woke up in the middle of the night yesterday with a sore throat. It was that raw, hurts to swallow kind of sore throat that makes you want to stay home and curl up on the sofa with a giant cup of tea and an oversized blanket.

Or maybe you'd prefer a hot toddy. Whatever.

I just hate that my first thought was that I couldn't be sick right now because I had so much work to do -- because sickness, as we all know, can be sooo inconvenient. Why can't my first reaction to the onset of illness be: Yay, sick day!

And I don't even know how I caught whatever it is that I have.

The new guy at the office has been coughing, the guy in the cubicle next to him called in sick yesterday, and the woman in the office next to mine has a chronic bronchial problem. Could have been any one of them.

It could even have been the toddler that visited the office the other day with his mama. The cute little guy waddled right up to my candy jar and poked and pawed at the glass trying to get to those vibrant sour cherry balls. [This is MY candy, kid... don't you read?]

You see? This is why sharing is bad.